Introducing Phoenix

The 90-day journey out of survival mode — and back into a life that actually feels like yours

Created and Led by Psychologist Caroline Middelsdorf

The Worlds' #1 Trauma Healing Program

Heal invisible emotional wounds, restore inner safety, and rebuild self-trust and self-love.

We've helped over 800+ people heal from their past and create lives filled with meaning, connection, and joy.

Made For You

You Deserve to Feel Whole Again

You Deserve to
Feel Whole Again

Phoenix is a 90-day program for people who feel disconnected from themselves — even after years of therapy, self-help, and trying to “work on it.”

Phoenix is for you if:

You've had years of therapy and understand why you're this way — but you still can't stop the patterns.

You monitor everyone's emotions like your survival depends on it — because it once did. Now you're an adult and you still can't stop.

You collapse the second you're alone. The mask drops and you feel everything. Or nothing. There's no in-between.

Your inner critic is brutal. Even when you accomplish something, it whispers "not enough." When you rest, it shames you.

Intimacy terrifies you. Getting close means getting hurt. So you stay surface-level, perform "fine," and feel desperately lonely even in relationships.

You fall into the same patterns — emotionally unavailable partners, giving too much, losing yourself

Those aren't personality traits. They're survival patterns your body learned.

Offer

Everything You Need To Take Your Life Back In 90 Days ❤️‍🩹

Here's what's included when you join the program:

The step-by-step plan I wish I had, so you don't have to figure it out alone. You'll retrain your nervous system through felt experiences so your body catches up and believes safety is real.

What you receive when you join:

Lifetime Access to the Phoenix Course

12 modules, 70+ lessons. A roadmap that works with your nervous system. Move at your own pace while making real progress - creating felt shifts in your body and mind, not just intellectualizing.

Three Months of

Weekly Live Sessions

Weekly group sessions where we do the work together - breathwork, somatic practices, nervous system regulation. Real-time support, breakthroughs, and a space where you're held.

Three Months Of Private Phoenix Community

A safe space with people shedding the same survival patterns. Practice new ways of being, share your journey, and build the support system you might not have in your everyday life.

Bonus: Includes the digital BEYOUMA Journal — navigate anxiety, recognize patterns, and track your healing.

Meet Your Guide

Caroline Middelsdorf

Psychologist and Trauma Coach

I'll never forget hitting rock bottom.

Lost. Overwhelmed. Convinced I'd never feel whole again.

Survival mode had taken everything: my confidence, my safety, my hope.

But in the darkness, I made myself a promise: If I make it out of this, I'll help others who are still fighting.

The climb back wasn't easy. But with each step, I discovered something I didn't expect- I was stronger than my survival patterns. Healing wasn't just possible. It was real.

And once I found my way out, I knew I had to build the roadmap I desperately needed when I was still lost.

That's Phoenix. Built from the practices and felt experiences that saved me and have transformed hundreds of lives since.

My mission: help you stop surviving, heal your invisible wounds, and start actually living.

This journey is real, raw, and transformative. I'm here to walk every step with you.

I'll never forget hitting rock bottom.

Lost. Overwhelmed. Convinced I'd never feel whole again.

Survival mode had taken everything: my confidence, my safety, my hope.

But in the darkness, I made myself a promise: If I make it out of this, I'll help others who are still fighting.

The climb back wasn't easy. But with each step, I discovered something I didn't expect- I was stronger than my survival patterns. Healing wasn't just possible. It was real.

And once I found my way out, I knew I had to build the roadmap I desperately needed when I was still lost.

That's Phoenix. Built from the practices and felt experiences that saved me and have transformed hundreds of lives since.

My mission: help you stop surviving, heal your invisible wounds, and start actually living.

This journey is real, raw, and transformative. I'm here to walk every step with you.

Testimonials

Transformation Stories from Phoenix Members

Healing is possible!

I find it challenging to write a review of Caroline's Phoenix course in words alone. I am so happy to say I found a safe, supportive, and engaging place in Caroline's course. The combination of private learning and group participation I've found to be very effective in my growth and allowing me to support others.

Thank you Caroline for giving me something I never thought was possible!

- E

03 February, 2025

Getting out of survival.

I experienced only positive outcomes from the Phoenix program. It is a safe and warm place to open up and share. The community in the program is therapeutical as it helps people relate with others and ease pain. It is supported by the profound information that guided me through my journey, and finally started experiencing getting out of the survival mode. I liked the variety of provided exercises and the self-pace of it. It gave me back my autonomy and supported me during my tough periods at work.

- L

07 March, 2025

I wish I had found Phoenix sooner.

Caroline is warm, comforting, caring, and so very supportive. I joined Phoenix about a month and a half ago, and I am already seeing changes in myself. Her combination of trauma support, self-guided video lessons, and online meetings with a small group truly brings a well-rounded program into anyone's home. I just wish I had found this course sooner.

- S

09 March, 2025

Real Changes..

Phoenix helped me shift in ways I never expected.

After 20 years in law enforcement, I suddenly felt ready to leave that path behind — with no fear about what’s next, just confidence and curiosity.

I’ve seen subtle yet powerful changes: I stopped wearing black, brought more color into my home, and even joined a course to reconnect with my feminine energy. The space, the practices, and the stories from others made me feel safe to open up and start seeing life from a new perspective.

- A

07 May, 2025

Phoenix is great when you need to learn about trauma and start to heal

I think the best thing with Phoenix is that it is a mixture between understanding trauma by facts, take it in to your body trough practice and also handle the emotions and relations connected to traumatic experience.

I love this course and how it is built. I think it is very valuble to be able to take the time, get used to new habits, practice self-trust and so on. Good to have three months and be able to follow live sessions to keep the inner work going and have some milestones.

Thank you for your work!

- E

18 February, 2025

I'm finally seeing real growth.

I am beginning to notice the way I react to people has always been trauma related. Anytime someone near me needed space, I always blamed myself and felt as if I must have done something wrong. I would overthink and perseverate until I made myself an anxious mess.

Today I was in the same situation and I felt uncomfortable, but realized they just needed a break and that it had nothing to do with me. This realization was huge and was of course followed by tears. Don’t give up on this process. It does have ups and downs, joyful moments and sad moments, but I feel that this process is so valuable and worth the rollercoaster of emotions.

- M

10 May, 2025

*Pseudonyms are used to protect the identity of our clients ❤️‍🩹

*Pseudonyms are used to protect
the identity of our clients ❤️‍🩹

Curriculum

Your Roadmap Out of Survival Mode

12 modules to recognize survival patterns, retrain your nervous system, and start living.

Module 0: Welcome to Phoenix

Your foundation - setting up your healing space, understanding the pace of this work, and connecting with the community.

0.1 Getting Started

0.2 What You'll Learn

0.3 Creating Your Space

0.4 Our Safe Place Community

0.5 Taking Your Time

0.6 The Blanket Practice

0.7 Closing Reflection

Module 1: Getting Familiar With Trauma

Learn what trauma really is - including invisible wounds like emotional neglect - and how your body reacts through stress responses.

1.1 Introduction

1.2 Foundations of Trauma

1.3 Types of Trauma

1.4 PTSD vs. CPTSD

1.5 Stress Responses - How The Body Reacts

1.5.1 Micro movement practice

1.6 The Effects of Trauma on Our Brain
1.6.1 Brain Fluid Practice

1.7 Understanding The Mind-Body Link & Emotional Neglect

1.8 Reflection

Module 2: The Body & Trauma

Understand how trauma affects your cardiovascular system, immune system, and digestion - with breathwork and jaw release practices.

2.1 Introduction

2.2 Cardiovascular Impact

2.3 Immune System

2.4 Digestive System

2.5 Box Breathing Practice

2.6 Jaw Release Practice

2.7 Closing Reflection

Module 3: Healing Your Inner Child

Meet your inner child and inner teenager, understand where your inner critic came from, and learn to confront it.

3.1 Introduction

3.2 The Role of Childhood Trauma, the Inner Child, and the Inner Teenager

3.3 Meeting Your Inner Parts | Practical Exercise

3.4 Echoes from the Past and the Rise of the Inner Critic

3.5 Confronting the Inner Critic

Module 4: Overcoming Your Trauma Patterns

Work through overthinking, people-pleasing, shame, fear of abandonment, and boundary-setting with mirror and body scan practices.

4.1 Introduction & Patterns

4.2 Overthinking & Fear

4.3 People-Pleasing

4.4 Shame & Guilt

4.5 Fear of Abandonment

4.6 Regulating Emotions

4.7 Boundary Setting

4.8 Mirror Practice for Vulnerability

4.9 Mirror Somatic Practice for Setting Boundaries

4.10 Body Scan Practice

4.11 Closing & Reflections

Module 5: Managing Your Trauma Responses

Navigate flashbacks, dissociation, and memory gaps with tapping exercises and the butterfly hug practice.

5.1 Introduction

5.2 Flashbacks

5.3 Dissociation

5.4 Memory Gaps

5.5 Tapping Exercise

5.6 The Butterfly Hug Practice

5.7 Closing

Module 6: Healing Relationships

Understand trauma bonds, attachment styles, and how trauma affects your relationships.

6.1 Introduction

6.2 How Trauma Affects Relationships

6.3 Trauma Bonds

6.4 Attachment Styles

6.5 Final Reflections and Closing

Module 7: Trauma and Its Effect on Sleep

Learn how trauma disrupts sleep cycles, plus morning and evening routines with somatic practices for better rest.

7.1 Introduction

7.2 How Sleep Works

7.3 How Trauma Disrupts the Sleep Cycles

7.4 Morning Practices to Set the Tone for the Day

7.5 Evening Routine

7.6 Somatic Practice – Fetal Rocking

7.7 Somatic Practice – Cat and Cow Somatic Practice Script

7.8 Somatic Practice – Metal Post Visualization

7.9 Closing & Reflection

Module 8: Navigating Grief

Work through the stages of grief, grieve what you never had, and learn to process crying, anger, and acceptance.

8.1 Introduction

8.2 Stages of Grief

8.3 Grieving What You Never Had

8.4 Crying & Anger

8.5 Acceptance & Integration

Module 9: Addressing Addictive Patterns

Understand how trauma shapes addictive behaviors - and practice mind-body techniques for freedom.

9.1 Introduction

9.2 How Trauma Shapes Addictive Behaviors

9.3 Common Behaviors and Their Roots in Trauma

9.4 Mind-Body Practices

9.5. Final Thoughts - Steps Toward Freedom

Module 10: Envisioning Your Future

Honor your progress, learn why dreaming matters, walk as your future self, and practice gratitude.

10.1 Introduction

10.2 Honoring Your Progress

10.3 Why Dreaming Matters

10.4 Walking as Your Future Self

10.5 Reflection and Gratitude

Module 11: Healing Through Food & Movement

Learn how food supports healing, how movement and nutrition work together, and find daily joy through dance.

11.1 Introduction

11.2 Food for Healing

11.3 How Movement and Nutrition Work Together

11.4 Final Thoughts

Group Coaching Calls

In addition to the course modules, you'll join live group sessions twice a week.

Sundays at 7pm CET (1pm EST / 10am PST) Thursdays at 7:30am CET (1:30am EST / 10:30pm PST Wednesday)

During these sessions, we practice healing work together - breathwork, somatic exercises, nervous system regulation. Caroline guides you through the practices in real-time, answers your questions, and helps you work through what's coming up as you heal.

This is where the felt experiences happen - not just learning about the work, but doing it together in a safe, supportive space.❤️

Start your healing journey!

What You'll Get:

3 Months Access To The Phoenix Program:
Weekly live group sessions with Caroline
Access to The Phoenix Community
A digital copy of the Beyouma journal
Lifetime Access to the Phoenix Course: 12 Video Modules with 70+ lessons

Enroll and start your 90-day healing journey

Just decide which option is best for you ❤️‍🩹

Flexible Payment Plan

$299/mo

(for 3 months)

Choose Payment Plan

What You'll Get:

3 Months Access To The Phoenix Program:
Weekly live group sessions with Caroline
Access to The Phoenix Community
A digital copy of the BEYOUMA journal
Lifetime Access to the Phoenix Course: 12 Video Modules with 70+ lessons

Pay in Full

$797 one-time

Choose Full-payment

What You'll Get:

3 Months Access To The Phoenix Program:
Weekly live group sessions with Caroline
Access to The Phoenix Community
A digital copy of the BEYOUMA journal

Lifetime Access to the Phoenix Course: 12 Video Modules with 70+ lessons

Pay in Full

$797 one-time

Choose Full-payment

What You'll Get:

3 Months Access To The Phoenix Program:
Weekly live group sessions with Caroline
Access to The Phoenix Community
A digital copy of the BEYOUMA journal
Lifetime Access to the Phoenix Course: 12 Video Modules with 70+ lessons

Choose 1-on-1

$3117 one-time

Choose 1-on-1 (limited spots)

*Only 8 spots available

What You'll Get:

6 dedicated 60 min one-to-one sessions with Caroline
3 Months Access To The Phoenix Program:
Weekly live group sessions with Caroline
Access to The Phoenix Community
A digital copy of the BEYOUMA journal
Lifetime Access to the Phoenix Course: 12 Video Modules with 70+ lessons

Still not sure if Phoenix is for you?

Access three free lessons from inside the program and experience how this work feels.

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FAQ

Your Questions, Answered...

Have further questions? Reach Out To Me.

What can I expect from this program?

Phoenix is an intense, three-month trauma healing program designed to help you heal at your own pace while making steady progress. The program combines a self-paced course, live group sessions, and a supportive private community.

Each course module spans one to two weeks, allowing you time to fully absorb and apply the material. Weekly live group sessions with me will provide deeper insights in the form of various practices, answer your questions, and offer direct support. Plus, you'll have access to our private community, a safe space where you can share, connect, and empower each other on your healing journey.

It's transformative and deeply supportive. Together, we will rise, heal, and transform.

Who is Phoenix for?

Phoenix is for you if you feel like something is holding you back emotionally, mentally, or physically drained, like the past is still casting a shadow over your present. If you feel stuck in cycles you don’t want to be in, overthink every decision, or struggle with phases of unexplained depression and severe anxiety, this program is for you.

It’s for you if you feel disconnected in your relationships or stuck in patterns that no longer serve you. If you’re tired of feeling like you’re going around in circles and are ready to stop letting the past dictate your future, Phoenix is here to help you break free.

This isn’t about doing the work halfway it’s about showing up, doing the deep healing, and overcoming what’s been holding you back. If you’re ready to reclaim your life, heal from the inside out, and finally step into the peace and authenticity you deserve, this program will guide you there.

What is included when I join the program?

When you join Phoenix, you'll get 90-day access to the program which will help you heal through trauma. Inside the program you'll get:

- Weekly live sessions, twice a week, during your entire membership. period.

- The Phoenix Community
- Your Own Digital Copy of the BEYOUMA Journal.
- LIFETIME Access to the Phoenix Course: 12 Modules, with 70+ lessons (And all future updates).

Optionally, you can also get Caroline's 1-on-1 support. There are only limited spots available each cohort.

How long will I have access to the Program?

You'll have access to the program: The Live Sessions and Community for 3 months when the enrollment period opens.

Additionally, you'll have lifetime access to the Phoenix Course, allowing you to continue your practice after the program ends.

How long will it take for me to heal?

Our program is designed with the intention to help you heal through your trauma and give you all support during your 3-month intensive period.

While everyone's journey is unique, we've seen high success rates with our patients who go through the entire course, join the weekly sessions and participate in the community consistently among their trauma healing.

Do I access to all the modules immediately?

Yes. When Phoenix' enrollment goes live, you'll get access to all course content for a lifetime.

How much time do I need to dedicate weekly?

On average, it should require 2-4 hours per week to really absorb the content of the modules and live sessions & benefit from the program.

It is the intention of the program that you go through one or two modules each week. In other words, take it slow and easy, don’t rush through the program.

I understand that you may be a parent, have multiple responsibilities, such as a full-time job, and are wondering if you’ll be able to get the most out of the program while balancing everything on your plate.

And so, I want to ensure you it’s more than realistic for you with this time, though I do I ask that you do the following: Show up fully to at least one of our live sessions a week and participate.

What is required from me?

To get the most out of this course, I ask that you show up fully to each session, take the time to move through each module, and remain open and willing to engage in the practices.

Have a pen and paper ready if needed, listen to your body, and approach the experience with curiosity and presence.

Can I join the program if I'm going through severe trauma or PTSD?

If you are experiencing severe PTSD, anxiety, or panic, it is important to proceed with caution. While our program is designed to be trauma-sensitive and offer grounding techniques, it is essential to recognize your own limits.

Please consult with your healthcare provider or a therapist before engaging in any practices, as they will be able to assess your specific needs and guide you accordingly. Participation in any activity within the program is completely voluntary. There is no obligation to engage in practices that feel overwhelming. If at any point you feel triggered or overwhelmed, please pause, listen to your body, and consider reaching out to a local crisis line or support network for immediate support.

We offer gentle, grounding practices within the course, but always prioritize your safety and well-being. For any further guidance or concerns, please consult a medical professional or mental health expert.

Your safety is our top priority, and we encourage you to move forward only when you feel ready.

Is the content LIVE or Recorded?

The program exists out of both pre-recorded as live content. The course modules are recorded and constantly updated & up to date. The weekly sessions are live and form as the core support to making steady progress in your healing journey.

Can I get additional 1:1 support?

Yes, each month I am opening up a limited amount of one-to-one spots for those who desire extra guidance and personalized support during their healing journey. You can find the option above, or additionally request for 1-on-1 support inside the Phoenix Community.

What happens after I finish the program?

When you complete Phoenix, my hope is that you’ll walk away with a deep sense of confidence and empowerment, knowing you have the tools to navigate life’s challenges and continue your healing journey. This program is about unlocking your potential and creating a foundation for lasting change. One step at a time.

If you’d like to continue growing and stay connected, you can remain part of our community through an optional subscription of $97/month. This will give you ongoing access to the course materials, group sessions, and support from like-minded individuals who are on their own healing journeys. You’re free to cancel anytime, it’s entirely up to you.

Your journey doesn’t end here; it evolves with you.

Do you offer refunds?

Refunds are not possible after you've accessed our community. Please read our Disclaimer for more information.

If you believe you've made an accidental purchase, please reach out to me at [email protected]

Questions: [email protected]

TESTIMONIALS

How Will Phoenix Work?

The Phoenix Program is spread over three months, allowing you to move at your own pace while still making steady progress. Each module is designed to represent one to two weeks of learning and practice, giving you time to fully absorb and apply the material.

We’ll meet weekly in group live sessions where I’ll guide you through deeper insights, answer your questions, and support you directly. In addition, you’ll have access to a supportive community, a safe space where you can share, connect, and empower each other throughout your healing journey.

This is an intense, transformative program, designed for those who are ready to dive deep, face their challenges head-on, and create lasting change. Together, we will rise, heal, and transform

Testimonials

Pre-Launch Starts December 17th, 2024.

Phoenix officially launches on January 8th 2025. However...

As a thank you for joining our waitlist and being a part of this journey, I've made this pre-launch available to a small amount of people.

By joining now, you'll:

- Receive full access to all course modules (dripped over the weeks to come)